How do you define happiness? How can you quantify happiness? What do you understand about happiness? Are you happy with how things are going on in your life right now? These are the questions that have been crawling in my mind lately. Can I really say that I am happy with my life right now?
I haven't given this much thought in the past, but lately, I have been asking myself: Am I really happy with what I am right now? Am I happy with what I have? Am I happy with myself and the person that I have become? If I am truly honest with myself, the answer to my questions is an emphatic NO.
Lately, I've been analyzing myself, I've been evaluating my relationships. These relationships are: my relationship with my parents, my relationship with my husband, my relationship with my kids, my relationship with my friends and colleagues. Then I realized that I haven't been giving my best to these relationships. My emotional relationship with my parents is practically non-existent, and though I cannot say the same as to my relationship with my husband, I know that I am not giving the 100% emotional attachment that we should have. I have a strained relationship with my eldest daughter, and lately even my youngest daughter. I always find myself on the verge of losing my temper whenever I deal with them. Most of the time I run out of patience whenever we are together. And this is where I feel I am failing miserably.
These are the thoughts which started my self-analysis. What's wrong with me? Why can't I be happy? Why do I always have to worry? Why do I always lose my patience easily? Why can't I be contented? Why can't I enjoy the company of my kids? Why can't I laugh more?
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